As always with Burning Man events, there was an amazing mix of great people, fun costumes and lots of art.
I think this picture, showing our collection of branches that ask "Y, Y, Y??", described my journey. Every time I've gone to Burning Man (three), I come away with some meaningful theme. This Apo theme was no different, but the depth surprised me as I only expected to have a lot of fun. On Thursday night, I was talking to Amy about my tendency to worry and overplan. She said, "well, yes, you are high strung, and I think you need a spiritual practice". That sounded so good! But how? But what kind of practice?
This inquiry continued on Friday night, when suddenly I wanted to get away from all the noise and bounce. My friend Claire and I walked far into an open field and laid down, with the full moon shining. Claire suddenly asked, "do you talk to God?". Whoa. What a question. Both of my parents are deeply spiritual and talk about their personal relationship with God. I think because both had alternative religions growing up, I rejected all notions of God and religion. Claire asked me to close my eyes and listen.
I left Apogaea with the resolve to become more connected, not just to myself but to something bigger than me. I can hear that voice, I really can. Call it my higher power, my subconscious, God... but this morning I wrote it all down: