I am in love with this saying. "It's on!". Yesterday, after seeing the movie "My Sister's Keeper" (where the sister is dying from leukemia, I came out a sobbing wreck and pondered my life. You know, because it's so rare that I really felt it was necessary.
I went to that "what the hell am I doing with my life and when am I going to do something BIG?".
I always wonder if anyone else out there is as obssessed with this question as I am. Being that the enneagram type 4 is in the self-image triad, and their primary concern is identity, I shouldn't be surprised. One thing about the enneagram is that it's all about how the Ego rules us. So I have to keep remembering that I am not my Identity. I am Helen, au naturel. I'm just me and I don't have to do something Big in my life.
And yet. As I've been exploring this whole thing on faith and spirituality, I realized yesterday that it's really not about my Ego feeling that I'm accomplished or a super star, it's truly about doing something good for the world. This is about me saying, how can I be fully used by the world for a higher purpose? Someday I hope that I start to see this actually happening more clearly. Yeah, yeah, I know that this is a path and a journey and that everything all works out. I know that I'm weaving the tapestry but I'm not seeing the pattern yet.
So, with the encouragement of Niki saying take one action now, I finally went to the bookstore and in 5 minutes found books on how to dress for your body type and what color palette look best on you. I was seriously shocked. Part of my life coaching is about making sure you look beautiful and that what you wearing (fabrics, shapes, colors), enhance your personal beauty. I know there is actually a science to that and these books rock at illustrating that. So onward I go!